We met at the end of January, and started to hang out a lot.. we would walk to our English class together, and then before both going to P.E. we would go to his locker. This routine continued until the end of that semester. We talked all day everyday, constantly texted and were always talking. We never ran out of thing's to talk about, it was like we were soul mates. We didn't have feelings for eachother, but we were the best of friends. Everytime I could talk to him I was happy. He could always make me laugh or smile, even in the midst of a fight. I remember our first fight, was when my other bestfriend had told me he'd said something bad about me, and I confronted him about it. I asked him about it and he told me he had been kidding and then said "to tell you the truth, there isn't one bad thing I could say about you." I think that`s when I started feeling different towards him. He made my heart beat a little faster, and made me smile so much wider. Everything was fine, great actually. I Loved every moment I spent with him, :) and then when the semester ended, and after our last provincial, thing's were weird.. we stopped talking completely, i'd text him and wouldn't get a reply, and then one night, one night in July, I texted him asking why we hadn't talked, keep in mind I was drunk during this, and I told him I liked him which caused a shit load of problems. We didn't talk again until october 30th where I was talking to his bestfriend and we talked about how we could try and be friends again, and he told me to text him the next day when I was sober, so I did, and he said he'd think about it. Think about what? I still don't know, we haven't talked, I re added him on facebook because I had previously deleted him, but he ignored that. I honestly don't know whats going on with us or if we'll ever be friends again, but I really hope we will be, Cause I miss him a lot :(

sigh.

I miss you. Enough Said.. I think I say that too much. I'm always gonna be left wondering if I should do something about it. But that's so hard of a concept to grasp, cause if I tell you, what would happen? How would it go? I'm so confused. Uhg :/

:/

i love how i need two blogs, on two seperate websites.. because i'd die if someone found this one..

I miss my old bestfriend.. a lot.

I miss you, that is all, I miss you, I miss your dumb attitude about life. I miss your stupidity. I miss when you called me sweets. I miss when you told me you loved me everynight before I went to sleep. I miss when I could call you babe, and both of us knew it meant nothing more then you being my bestfriend. I miss when you would write me songs. I miss when you told me you couldn't live without me, and proved that to be a lie. I miss when you would make me feel better during thunderstorms, I miss when you stayed up on the phone with me, with your guitar and watched the meteor shower. I miss being in math class and listening to "must have done something right" on our ipods, with out headphone from yours, and one from mine. I miss every little thing you said. and even though there isn`t one thing I don't miss about you, i'm over you, 100% over you.. but that doesn't mean I can't miss my old bestfriend.

bestfriend.

I like how you're the smartest person I know.
I like how you can be such a nerd sometimes.
I like how you've taught me so much, more than anyone ever has.
I like how we both argue over the stupidest things, but can forget anything ever happened two seconds later.
I like how annoying you are, even if I complain about it and tell you not to talk to me.
I like when you mimic me.
I like when you send me dumb videos and I always take the time to watch them.
I like how often you need haircuts.
I like when you make fun of me, because I know your always joking.
I like how sweet you are, no matter how often you show it.
I like your mood swings.
I like your dumb purple sweater.
I like how you can quote mean girls, word for word, in all appropriate situations.
I like when you tell me there isn't anything bad you could say about me.
I like how you're amazing.
I like how I couldn't live without you.